Just amazed at the way life is treating me...

Tujhse Naaraaj Nahi Zindagi Hairan Hu Main...)

Just amazed at the way life is treating me.. Its been one month from now that I lost my dad...(Dad wherever u r.. U will always be rememebered.. Love u Dad...) .. ITS tricky sometimes to deal wid life.. Just shocked n amazed why such a thing happened to me.. N why only me... Everything was goin fine.. We were the most amazing family anyone could ever had...We had everything on earth.. Why did then all this happened to me.. Sometimes I feel overstressed.. just because of the fact that life can be so cruel to u... I never imagined this could happen to me.. My dad was a doctor... Always worked for poor people.. A visionary who thought that the health system in India could only be changed if the rural setup is changed... N so since 25 long years of his entire carrer he decided to serve the poor n serve in the villages..

AND TODAY.. when I see that my dad could not survive just because he was in rural area AT THE TIME OF HIS DEATH... everything happened suddenly.. he was not sick.. not terminally ill.. had just met him 4 dayz ago.... and he died because the hospital facilities werent adequate there...

Is this a dream... No god..this cant be... plz ..oh.. god... Why do u do such to people who want to help the poor... what did he do.. his only mistake that he wanted to serve the poor... n what did he get... whehn he was in need no facility available..

god... cant believe this is happening to me... why didnt u dad stay here at home in the city.. what did u get by staying there in that village... what did the people give u return.. i always told u plz think of your self first.. why did u so strongly believed in your so called stupid medical officers that thye will take care of u... so many of them not even knowing the basics of a CPR...or emergency life saving tactics... just cant believe when they took u.. a doctor to the hospital.. it took half an hour for a doctor to come... (my dad being the only MBBS doc THERE in the village..) What must be happening to the ordinary people there... n what did u get dad from those people for whom u served your entire life....

I feel so helpless dad... why wasnt i there with you... i feel helpless.. me being a doc and still couldnt save u dad.. why didnt u listen to me...why didnt u stay here in the city...

sometimes.. i really feel shattered... i will never ever feel like now serving in an rural area... where people DONT care for the ones who live for them.. really shattered.. n felling helpless...

HOPING FOR THE BEST....!!!!

1) We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite HOPE-- Martin Luther King, Jr.


2)Never talk defeat. Use words like HOPE, belief, faith, victory. -- Norman Vincent Peale


3)Practice HOPE. As hopefulness becomes a habit, you can achieve a permanently happy spirit. -- Norman Vincent Peale



4)HOPE is always available to us. When we feel defeated, we need only take a deep breath and say, "Yes," and hope will reappear. -- Monroe Forester



5) We live by admiration, HOPE and love. -- William Wordsworth



6) We judge of man's wisdom by his HOPE-- Ralph Waldo Emerson



7) Man is a creature of HOPE and invention, both of which believe in the idea that things cannot be changed.-- Tom Clancy



8)The very least you can do in your life is to figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that HOPE. Not admire it from a distance but live right in it, under its roof. -- Barbara Kingsolver




10)HOPE is the last thing that dies in man; and though it be exceedingly deceitful, yet it is of this good use to us, that while we are traveling through life it conducts us in an easier and more pleasant way to our journey's end. -- François de la Rochefoucauld




11)He who does not HOPE to win has already lost. -- Jose Joaquin Olmedo



12)When you do nothing, you feel overwhelmed and powerless. But when you get involved, you feel the sense of HOPE and accomplishment that comes from knowing you are working to make things better.--Pauline R. Kezer




13)HOPE is the thing with feathers-- That perches in the soul-- And sings the tune without the words-- And never stops--at all-- Emily Dickenson


14) Once u choose HOPE anything is possible- Christopher Reeves.


15)Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be HOPE at all.-Dale Carnegie.



16)HOPE is both the earliest and the most indispensable virtue inherent in the state of being alive. If life is to be sustained hope must remain, even where confidence is wounded, trust impaired.-ERIK H ERIKSON

Learning to love my self again.........!!

Its been days I havent written.. And all these days something was eating me up... Why on earth do I give so much importance to others.. Why does my life have to depend on someone.. Why should I link my happiness to other peoples happiness.. Why do I care so much for people around me.. Have I stopped loving myself.. Do I not really care about me at all....



And all this while I have realized that everytime I have been sad it was just because somebody else was sad.. It had got nothing to do with me... Everytime I cried was just because somebody else made me cry not because that something was wrong with me...

I m all perfect.. I have everything wht I wanted in life.. I am an acheiver.. I am good to everyone.. I am blessed with everything nice on this earth..THEN why still everything is not going the right way.. And now I have come to the root of the cause.. All this is becuase I give just to much of my self to others.. I need to be myself..



I need to change... I need to love myself.. I need to invest in my self.... I need to take care of myself... I dont want to change for others but I want to change for myself.. there is nothing wrong about me... I am all perfect.. I have everything.. still why do I get unhappy when my close ones are unhappy..

Why do I on earth always think on changing others.. But now I have realized that we can only change one person.. And that is us... And Its high time.. I need to reinvest in me.. So that I become a better person ay by day.. I need to take care of myself.. Because loving others I have forgotten my true self...



How can I on earth give when I dont have too much love for myself.. Am I forgetting myself... ??



No.. I need to love myself... Learn new things everyday..


FOR WHENEVER I AM SAD OR HAPPY... PEOPLE SURROUNDING ME SHOULD ONLY BE A PART OF MY HAPPINESS OR SADNESS.. NOT THE WHOLE OF IT...


And really someone who loves you will appreciate you only when you are at your best...



God.. I pray to you to give me immense courage and a positive attitude to live life.. Let me be myself again...Let me be surrounded by enthusiastic people so that i have an enthusiastic approach towards life..



LET ME BE HAPPY.. Let me be my self.. Let me be happy on my achievements.. my pleasures.. my strengths.. Let not my happiness be governed by somebody elses happiness... Let me be responsible for my achievements,. My failures.. And my pleasures...



Let me start my life with a new beginning.. With a ray of hope...Let only positivity surround me.. Let only positivity surround me...!!!

Voila.. I am on cloud nine today.!

Hey.. Thanks all.. Today i am really happy.. Happy like anything.. Dont know what to say.. Its all because you people wished me luck.. Thanks guys.. I am really on cloud nine today.. Really couldnt help sharing it with you.. Thanks you god.. I am so thankful to you.. Thanks for listening to me.. I ask you nothing more.. Just a big thank you.. And love you guys..for wishing me luck.. I am dancing with joy.. I cant explain how happy i am.. Somebody pinch me.. Is this real.. ?

And Now.. They Are Having Problem Wid Pub Culture!!!

Its pathetic.. There was this shocking Mangalore incident.. And now they are against the Pub Culture…

I mean whats wrong with the pub culture..???

If the youngsters or for that matter anyone who wants to go to the pub love going To Pubs… Its totally and completely their wish.. Why the hell do these politicians having a problem??


I personally have never been to pubs uptil now… coz there is only one in my city.. n its highly unsafe.. I love dancing and who doesn’t want to enjoy.. With friends.. Going to the right pub.. A pub having licence.. Goin wid the right people.. Not doing drugs… Then whats wrong with it..


I thought somehow when I get admission in a metro like Mumbai or bangalore.. I will surely like to have a good time.. BUT… not now.. I wont even dare to..


Its really scary after the Mangalore incident.. In a country where I thought women are worshipped and respected.. I was shocked to death to see them beaten up… that too mercilessly and brutally…


No I don’t intend to start a Mahila Mukti Morcha… but the situation is really pathetic..WE need to raise our voices..


And now these politicians are having a problem on what the girls wear.. if they talk to boys or not..if they go to pubs or not.. Oh.. God.. Its ridiculous.. Who the hell are they to tell me what to wear and not wear…I very much understand what to wear and not to wear on a particular occasion…


We are the youngsters of India.. We very well have our Indian morals and culture intact in us… We know what is good and what is bad.. We know how to choose the right from the wrong… this is pathetic.. What problem do these people have…


RECENTLY I heard on CNN IBN that people are coming up on streets with posters saying “Westernization is not good for India… “Oh.. plz.. Cut the crap..


You only see westernistation when regarding issues considering women in India.. What when you give liscence to western companies to come here.. all this pathetic… Really don’t know what to say…


But yes.. It has hurt me as a girl.. A women.. I thought India wud soon be free.. of all this crap one day.. But now they are telling a girl what to wear and not to wear.


Is is the free India which we talk about.. is the India where we have to think thousand times before going to a place.. or for that matter girls have to think before doin something OR Rather everything and anything…


And its more shocking to hear on the news as I type these lines… the people who were responsible.. all 28 of them who had beaten up the girls and guys there.. have been granted bail.. Its RIDICULOUS……!!!


COZ.. now terrorism is not at all an important issue for the politicians… They are targeting other so very important issues about what a girl should wear n not wear.. It is completely unbelievable.. and now the health minister.. ambumani ramdoss has come wid his statement against pub culture.. he says its harming India...

And I will not b surprised for sure.. When the shiv sena creats havoc this valentines day on 14 th feb.. they burn up cards.. beat up youth.. So that they
Do not meet with their girlfriends…they have problem with girls na d boys meeting in public too.. this is PATHETIC..!!!

Tag 2 and The Awards.....

Hey Steve... Thanks for the award...

The Supertar award is given to bloggers who are talented and come up with good topics.Thanks ste. once again for the award..

I Give this award to dhiren,gauri, srini, just call me a, rahul v, latin sardar,akansha, jack, kaushal, divinediu, i walk alone.

This is the Blogscar award.. It is given to people who inspire me through their posts..

I give this award to ste, arjun, criz, anurag, sawan..

and this is the blogger friend award..

I Give this award to avinash, pankhuri, chremical thoughts,azoed,mithe, arti, aiman sarosh

And now...
THE TAG
(given by stephen and "just call me a")

1) What is your occupation? : A doctor in the making.. Recently completed my internship and now studying for my post graduation exams... Want to be a dermatologist...

2)What colour are your socks now? : They are Cream colored with orange, red n yellow flowers on them.. I wear socks everyday.. even at home.. keeps feet soft...

3)What are you listening to now? I dont wanna miss a thing- by Aerosmith.. n before that i was listening to Masakkali 4m Delhi 6.. (OH.. wht a combination :-)
4)What was the last thing you ate? I had soup.. a different one today with carrot, tomoto n beet root mixed.. tastes awesome...(mom u really make it gr8)

5)Last person you spoke to on phone? : MY BEST friend.. and if u ask me this tomoro.. it will be the same answer probably.. distance has made us apart but the phone is our best pal.. we talk almost everyday...

6)Do you like the person who sent you this? :oh.. actually two people have sent me this tag... one is stephen n the other "just call me A".. so now i have to think who i like n who i dont like... kidding...lol

"Just call me A": I Really like her.. I think She is a person wid a happy go lucky kinda attitude.. a thoughtful, and kind person.. n I wud Luv to know more of her..

Steve: I would say I just love the way he writes.. I completely adore his blog.. I love his writtings.. becoz there is some kinda motivation in each of his posts.. and from his blog I can make out that steve is one nice,kind person.. So be like this always Steve.. N keep writing...

7)How old are you today? : I am 24 years old..

8)What is your favourite sport to watch on TV? : I used to watch cricket very much before but rahul dravid got married n i dont watch cricket any more:-( AND I am a totally outdoor person.. So I love to play basketball.. and I like badminton very much..

9)What are your favourite drinks? I DONT DRINK.. :-) well... I like tea, coffee...i m a total coffee addict.. love it like anything.. and my day begins with nimbu paani.. so i have it everyday..

10)Have you ever dyed your hair ? No i have never dyed my hair uptil now.. but i am planning to do it nest month.. but just one streak of hair... not all...

11)Favourite food? : I love everything which is CHINESE... and apart from that i love all indian masala stuff... Paani puri, chat, bhel n many more.. I love hersheys chocolates...

12)Last movie watched? Dostana.....:-)

13)Favourite day of the year? ?: Its the most auspisciuos day on earth.. the day on which I was born.. 11th june..its my favorite so far...

14)How do you vent out your anger? : I am angry for very few times in a year.. n whenever i am i dont talk to anybody.. I just keep quiet.. write my diary.. vent out all my frustrations on the pages.. but I dont like to take out my anger on things or people.. I prefer to stay calm...

15)Favourite toy as a child? : the barby and the miniature toys made out of clay like a small tea pot. small plastic fridge, small wooden cupboard.. oh.. there were many... I used to make my small sweet home wid them...

16)Favourite season? Summer... my favorite...

17)Do you want your friends to email you? : Yeh i wud love to see an email from my friends almost every day... you can send me an email at riya7585@gmail.com.

18)When was the last time you cried?: DAY before yesterday..just becoz a relative spoilt my mood n hurt me.. otherwise i m a happy person.. dont cry often....

19)What is on the floor of your closet: My handbag.... My eyeliner, Lipgloss, Kajal, Linda goodman, n my n 73 mobile...

20)Who is the friend you have had the longest?: A friend from school days...we are friends since 15 years.. n I talk to her regularly..HER name is Akanksha...

21)What did you do last night? : I watched a movie... then i blogged.. listened to some songs.. talked to friends on phone.. studied a bit.. had my dinner ..watched tv.. painted a card.. read chicken soup for the soul.. said my prayer.. n finally went to bed... phew....

22)What are you most afraid of? : Loosing the ones who are very close to me.. the ones who love me and whom I care for very much...

23)Plain,cheese or spicy hamburger? : Spicy hamburgers...LOVE SPICY STUFF...

24)Favourite dog breed? : I DONT like pets...

25)Favorite day of the week? Its got to be a Sunday.. dont know somehow i link it a holiday since childhood.. but mostly I never GET a holiday nowadays on sundays too.. but still its a fun day...

26)How many states have you lived in? : Uptil now only 1

27)Diamond or pearl? : Diamonds and pearls both.. oh wht u asking a girl to choose one.. well I love diamonds more than pearls.. They r the bestest..but pearls have their own charm....

28)What is your wish for this new year? : I wish every little happiness for my family ..I wish for their health, prosperity and success...and that all the people I love have a very successful year ahead.. also I wish that the word terrorism is eliminated from the world itself.. n we have safe free india...

29)New year resolutions? : Oh.. many.. one of them is be punctual and consistent in everything I do... (its not a geminian trait...;-( ...but i m gud at multitasking u see..:-)

Writting tags is a big task.. but yeah.. it makes you know more about yourself.. How much time do we actually take out to know what little little things we like in our day to day lives.. Anyways...thanks that i got an opportunity to write another one..

Is It The Sixth Sense???

Some times you know things before hand.. You have an instinct.. A feeling from within... An instinct you have belief in.... AND then you firmly belive in it..without raising a question without any doubt...

Because it was a voice which has come from the heart... And you act accordingly.. Without even thinking.. You abide by your thought.. You do what within you said.....


That day my cousin went to mumbai and she was about to land on the VT terminus on the day of 26/11... but something within her said she should get down at the next station..

So she changed her plan instantly.. And she was saved.. Otherwise she wud have been knocked down by any of the terrosrists... was it the sixth sense that saved her.. What was it that prompted her to change the idea at the very moment...


Why did she change her thought instantly...


I have experienced this also a few times in my life... SOME which have saved me... and some I regret that I took wrong decisions which have landed me in wrong sitituations...

Why do we so firmly believe in our instincts... Are these instincts or gut feelings always correct...


Its sometimes that your instinct tells you that you should talk to a stranger or not.. Some people you talk very comfortably the first time... some you find very difficult coping with... your instinct tells you that hes not a nice person.... AND wid some u get along very well..


What is this instinct.. Is this a positive force.. Or is it gods voice... Might be it is that thing with which god directs us and and makes things go his way....... Or is this instinct inborn... Within each of us..


Sometimes you have fight with you friend and suddenly you know she is not goin to talk to you...

Sometimes you have an exam and you have this feeling that this particular question is goin to come in the exams.... and it does come...

Sometimes you feel you should not invest your money in a particular company and the next day the share market goes down for that particular share..


Sometimes you cancel the bus ticket because you had something else in mind and the next day you hear that the bus met with an accident..


What is this something which stops you.. Or what is this something that promts you to do things other way...

What is this thing which you firmly believe in without even giving it a thought...Why do end up doing things differently...Why do we have so much belief in our instinct...



What is it... An inner belief... An inner positive energy... The voice of God...Or the sixth sense... Or just another possibilty or just the theory of probability and chance.....